i wish . .

i wish i didn't love you so much . .
cuz it's like you hurt me but i still can't let go
u love me but its still not enough
u say u love me but i want it to show

my mind wants to leave
but my heart won't let me
i'm doing the best i can
but temptation surrounds me

TrueLove

Love is EVIL ! lol , nahh
but love is a destroyer & a peace-maker . .
Love can tear yu apart & put yu back together. .
Love can mae yu be like gtfomf or make yu say "come closer". .
Love is always pure tho . well true love tht is. .
Love can mae yu wanna scream or smile. .
Love can be difficult or easy. .
Love can be a cause or an effect. .
Love, oh love, why must yu be sooo complicated ?

Why cant we just get along , love ?
Why cant we disagree but move on ?
Why cant we choose who & how to love ?
Why cant we put aside differnces ?
WWhy cant we be patient & understanding ?
Well we shuld be able to if its TrueLove , right ?
WRONG !

Even truelove has there problems. .
Even truelove goes thru pain. .
Even truelove can go thru hell. .

But truelove also accepts the other for who they are..
Even if they arent close to perfect. .

TrueLove ? something thts confusing
& iwonder if i found my truelove. . . .

justThinking .

okayy soo i was just thinking , & when/if a relationship is mainly based on S E X , the relationship doesnt last very long . i mean everyone can have sex . Relationships should be exclusive, something two ppl share that would be hard to find in others . Sex ? u can find that in EVERYBODY, thts not original . if couples DO decide to have sex just remember its not a priority nor neccessity !

signing out . . .

-Chelly.Y

StrongWaves , DarkMornings

The waves washes things away
if you're lost, the sun leaves you to stray
the waves will mostly stay
but the sun always goes away

you have the perfect castle in the sand
you can try to save it far as long as you can
but waves are coming you cant withstand
they will wash away your castle in the sand

the sun comes up every morning
but it never stays; it gets all stormy
sometimes the night is filled with rain pouring
& then it's mostly a dark morning. . .

-Chelly Y

*includes deep metaphors , soo dont think its literal*

A Life-Long Friendship

As I try to trace down our friendship journey
I find myself lost
I would pay to find the history
Whatever the cost
I’m thinking back on all the years
I search & search but never find
Time moves like the speed of light
I guess it flew past my mind
Well whenever it was
I’m happy to have you
I never would have predicted this
And now it’s a dream come true
You are always there no matter what
If I am happy or down
We could not be talking & if I need you
You always come around
That is why I love you
You never let your pride get in the way
I cant picture life w/o my BFF
That’s why BR is where you should stay
We are human
We will fight and fuss
But after a long day at school
I still look forward to the bus
Because you’re there
You take away all my pain
With your corny jokes & laughter
I hope for you, I do the same
I hope this is a life-time friendship
Because you will be in my heart, life-long
We can always count on each other
When life gets crazy & things go wrong

-Chelly Y
 
*dedicated to my bestfriend . ily . .
 
i look forward to adding on to this :)

From Me to You

I look for all the reasons
that may cause yuu to leave
Nothing has ever felt
This good or been this true
When yuu speak on how yuu feel. .
about me. . .
I don't believe it.
It feels too suureal
I can't imagine for you. .
to love ME , unconditionally.
Accept my FLAWS
soo instead , i try to find wrongs
Accussing you of all unfaithfulness
When deep down all i want to do
is trust & believe that. .
you wont cause any harm . . .to me
Being afraid of the predator ,
which is yuu
tryna protect my vunerability
scared that yuu may
slip up & make me your prey.
So i keep my guard UP
hoping tht yuu dont give up
& praying tht yuu are patient
slowly allowing ME
to trust & pull down my guard
for you to love ME . .
unconditionally . . .

::Chelly Chelz

RE:cap

Okayy , sooo i havent blogged since i graduated !
*--------------------------------------*
Graduation was May 17th & i dnt think i will ever forget tht day !
Well maybe once imm old & gray , lol
Buuut it was a surreal moment for meh like when i crossed the stage i wasnt just crossing a stage
I was crossing over into a new part of my life
A new part tht now allows ME to decide my path .
I wasnt just receiving a diploma
i also received courage & opportunities .
Opportunities to better myself so tht i can live a successful life.
It was a saddening moment but also a glorious one .
I know i will be fine at the end of the day .
I will reach my goals w/ God's help in evry whicha way !

::Chelly Chelz

"You become stressed when you worry about other's input, opinions, or lives. Just chill tf out forreal and do you."

. . . i <3 this . it's soo true. when u worry abt urself everything's cool , but worrying abt others, will constantly leave yu w/ headaches & stress ! just live YOUR life .

That is all . .

So-called Life.

Trapped inside
all alone with
deep cries
formed by a mother
that doesn't trust
a mother that
yells & fuss
a father that smokes & cuss
a family that drives me nuts
a lil brother who's suppose 2 be my friend
we were at one time
but how quickly things end.
Trapped in this cage
we call life
living each day
in utter strive.
Waiting on the day
when i can move out
& do things my way
Forced to obey their rules
forced to be treated so cruel
These four walls are all i have
& this so called life
is leading me 2 a dead end path
Having 2 get permission 2 sleep
treated like a criminal w/ shackles on my feet
but this so called life won't last long for me
here lies the door 2 success
& i hold the key
My dreams WILL be accomplished
even if it takes forever & eternity.

-Chelly Y

*This was written for someone special.*

random..

you go left,
i go right
but before
it was you go str8
& i on your side.
how quickly
things change
without it being
predicted.
listening to all the
rumors & critics
do they really knw?
no.
cause we barely knw
if we knew
there would be
a me & you.
but it's not a
we, us, or you & me
we're nothing
thought our bond
would last
for eternity.
guess thats not
what it used 2 be
cuz if tht was eternity
1 decade
is something
i dont wanna see.

-Chelly Y

Ready4College! ;

I'm so ready for college at LSU ! I'm just ready for college period. High School is okay, but i'm tired of it ! Everyday i just smh at majority of the ppl. It's so mess-filled. Gosh! I'm just ready for freedom &' fun ! Party party party. . .lol. but i hope i can have fun &' keep up mah grades !_

...supporter

I look 4 love in you.
when I look into your eyes
i see pain...
pain that i want to ease.
I see all of your fears
and all of your dreams.
I want 2 take away the fears
& support your dreams.
I look 4 love in you
because i can only imagine
how great of a love
we would have
could have
should have.
down & out
is what you are,
is what you were.
i can give you
love & happiness
just trust & believe.
give it time
waiting patiently
for you 2 see.
you say you're caged in
but you should break free
break free & come to me
i can be the one you need
the one you desire
& the one 2 extinguish your fire.

. . .

You show you care in private
But when certain people come around
You act like I'm not there
Like it wouldn't matter at all
In private, it's all smiles
With company, all frowns
I don't know why
But this can't go on forever
I'm not giving my heart away
to someone who wants it half of the time
I want all the attention
& all the love
...all of the time.

Ordinary

ORDINARY people?!

every one is ordinary, in other people's eyes but its what you see & how u feel on the inside
we don't know what choice to make we just live & learn, yes we will make mistakes
in life. we may want 2 make the right decision but we never know the pain it will take us, the gruesome incision.
on our hearts. these words on this page isnt enough 2 get the pain out my mind that's in a cage.
locked up. i wanna make choices that are right but thats not gonna happen everytime cuz i'm human.
no one can ever make u feel like u've done something wrong unless it is or ur weak-minded.
everything in life depends on the perfect timing.
most of the time we don't choose the time but with tons of thoughts screwing around in your mind.
we lose patience. we let everthing out at the wrong time & its too late 2 take some back.
once you hurt someone they will try 2 hurt u, not giving any slack.
on your feelings. just trying to get even. but nothing is even not even 2, 4, 6, 8.
so in order 2 break out from this ordinary confinement you have to believe in yourself & let the thoughts of destruction subside with. the negative.

-Chelly Y.

[spoken word]

Sweet Words

Your breath leaves me intoxicated
the closer you are
the faster my heary beats
the slower time ticks
the faster my blood rush
when you step back I'm recovered
it's a moment of life or death
my heart beats slows
and my world unfolds
the smell of your sweet breath
the very scent of it,
leaves me begging for more.

-Chelly Y

Tick...Tick...Tick

Words aren't enough to bring back the feelings
we just shifted, with different feelings
it's like the love we had is slowly fading
we have 2 reverse it quick
before it's too late
Late is sooner than we think
it can be in a blink of an eye
We don't know when,
but we''ll know when...
it happens.
cuz it's gonna hit hard
like a massive bomb
we'll feel it's aftermath
and after that...
maybe we'll realize what we lost
was great or just a fake.
We'll know!!
So time is of the essence
we don't have time to..
wait for the bomb 2 be thrown
cuz when it hits...
love could be gone. . .

-Chelly Y

_fading identity

You're trying to be something you're not
you keep it up for as long as possible
but...not long enough
your new identity slowly fades
you can TRY to please me
with this alter ego
but i see right through it
just be yourself.
I understand if that's hard to do
but if you can't do that
then...this alter-ego will surely vanish
Be yourself
someone will accept the real you
even if its not me
someone will
just try & see
you cant please everyone
so just be happy
with your real identity
you can't change yourself
to be someone else
that's not what you were meant to be
Just be yourself
This new person you created won't last long
it'll just slowly fade along...

-Chelly Y.

_The Sweetest Masculine Sound

The sweetest voice
That's like music to my ears
So soothing,
It takes away all my fears.

My own personal drug
Can stop any battle or war
When my heart beat picks up
I know that you aren't far.

A sweet intoxication
That can wake me up or put me to sleep
The sounds of your masculine voice,
Even the slightest whisper, makes me weak.

My heart is at an high
I take a break to calm down
Because I am in love,
In love with your sweet, masculine sound.

-Chelly Y.

wow

woww...go check out this 9 yr. old boy dancing 2 Rude Boy....in LEGGINGS!

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. . . .i cant function properly when I'm on the computer all i see is sadness. i'm logging OFF. . .

http://modernmaddness.tumblr.com/post/405137205/reblog-if-you-catch-yourself-smiling-like-an-idiot

"REBLOG IF you catch yourself smiling like an idiot while texting, and everyone else is looking at you like you’re a freak."

....They should KNOW ! I mean gosh, it's not that hard 2 grasp. I wonder if they know, well they have to know. I wonder if they feel tht way too. I think i should be told so. Lets say i go through with this, then it turns out opposite of what i hoped. Is that a good thing or not? Well if it's not then it would come back. & if it is, then...it is! So how do I go abt doing this? Do i do my end 1st? wait? or play both sides? hmmm....find out what happens next time...

_the beauty of a crush

crush 2 hard, might fall 2 pieces
it's no guarantee at all
just live & hope they love
once they knw, the crush is over but
it has potential.

not saying the vibe is gone
but the thrill might be
you are so worried what they response gone be
just have hope, you never know
it might be consensual.

being under someone's spell
not literally but you know
giving them the power 2 make your day
it's not totally bad
if they don't play with your emotions.

once you both embrace it
it's great couldnt be any better
they bring you happiness
you bring them happiness
& love & devotion.

in the end, it could be 2 results
a bad one, which i wont go into details
a good one that leaves u happy 4 eternity
i think you go through a sudden connection
especially if its your soul-mate.

each day seeing them brings joy
you couldn't ask for more
it's a great feeling, no one else matters
if you don't know how it feels
it's coming, just wait.

-Chelly Y.

_BIG 18

. . .
   today i am L E G A L !!! =)

_a lil' something. . .

When ur away
u leave my heart 2 stray.
When ur with me
there's no other place i want 2 be
so you left this lil piece of you, so i wont go insane,
& it's a a silver jewel on a silver chain . . .

You were once my friend
but now yu're my crush
I wanna replay a moment we shared, over again
But like yu say, it's no big rush. . . .

I can't stop thinkin about you, dreaming about you
I don't know what yu did but i can't live without yu. . . .

-Chelly Y

wats up

chillin...whts up w/ yu!

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_Match Made

It's "we" now not you & me

We have Physics, no more like chemistry

there is no limit as far as we can see

we will be the best that we can be

when together, our breathing is synchronized

& our hearts & souls are inline

I can see it through your eyes

the more i see u, the more i realize

when it's true love, u'll just know

& i know that i never wanna let yu go

us parting is a great fright

but we'll cross that bridge when it comes 2 sight

your love is my addictive drug

your love would harm the lungs

w/o yu baby, i'm not breathing

Imma hold it down cuz boy i'm not leaving.

-Chelly Y

_Sweetest Love

You have the sweetest love
the love u show, i adore
you're my knight & shining armor
so others shudnt even bother
you''re my 1 & only lemon squeeze*
i love everything abt u, evn ya lil weeze*
Into greatness, I leap
when i fall, i fall deep
but w/ u it's like i'm floatin on air
the thght of us parting is more than i can bare
holding hands & kisses on the cheeck
ahh man, we made it to the peak
Can we go any higher?
Can we be any flyer?
If we do, it must be heaven
if i only had these swans*, i'll give u all seven. . .

-Chelly Y

* sumbody nickname
**12 days of christmas song

_Lost of Understanding

Dedicated 2 My Father. . .

I'm shedding tears 2 clear the pain
the pain from my heart will always remain
the day i lost u, i lost understanding
i lost all sense of comfort
i lost understanding cuz u were the only one 2 understand me
now years later, no one still understands me
u supported my dreams, unlike THEM
cuz they will never understand me
u was there for me
you looked after me
sometimes i think God messed up & took half of me
he baffled me
Why me? why u?
who knows, surely wish i had a clue
i miss u dearly
talkn 2 God, asking if he hearing me
ur absense is killing me
the pain won't go away
I think abt u everyday
I shed tears in every way
mournful tears, silent cries
coming from my soul or my eyes
I'm still not understanding
but maybe cause when i lost you...
                      ...i lost understanding.

-Chelly Y

_when it's yu i see. . .

passionate looks from 1 eye 2 tha next
hands free from all wrinkles
when confusion strikes your lip tingles
skin so soft and smooth
once touched, 1st thought is ooooh
sending sensations through my body
your hands so masculine and strong
how could this feeling ever be wrong
you're like a beautiful song
i'll listen 2 u all day long
silver brackets show as you speak
my thoughts are staring to come as a leak
but ur shine is gleaming & bright
OMG, this feeling gotta be right
do i really want yu or need u?
or am i infactuated w/ ur beauty
it might be both maybe its your...
sparkling eyes,
lips that shine
hands that are wrinkle free
the way ur words flow like water in a creek
idk what it is but its unique
 feelings 4 u seem to be concrete
i won't erase u from my mind
until ur heart becomes mine
i won't erase tha thoughts in my head
until the day i am mentally dead
the feelings are stuck with me
but only when it's you that i see. . .
-Chelly Y

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_Eclipse Trailer !

OMFG ! IM TOO EXCITED ! EVERY1 SHUD GO SEE IT ! JUNE 30, 2010

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_karma SUCKS

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_hey world

hey world, sorry i havent been blogging lately! but i havent really had anythng 2 blog abt =/

i will do better!

Love,

Ur blogger, Chelsea

_Quote(s) of Tha Day

_this is my 1st blog for March...

*Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical.

-Trey Parker and Matt Stone

*We would worry less about what others think of us if we realized how seldom they do.
-Ethel Barrett

okayy,,,so my internet at home is NOT working! tha ppl i am stealing tha connection from must not have paid their bill...SMH ! soooo now i cant tweet except 4 my fone..ughh...so now i am waiting to take my senior pictures in BCA !

i hope they come out GOOD ! :)

_ENUFF

alriteee , so like if yu have a gf or bf yu shud treat them like it ! not like a brother or sister ! thts NOT tight. . .but u treat ur siblings like it? thts BACKWARDS !

if i come somewhere for YOUR benefit u better show ME some attention not run off on tha fone like u NOT abt 2 see them ! like damnnn wht is really goin on. . .im not saying abandon them or choose between us, but there are just some things u DONT do ! & i've taken ENUFF of it

_stuffed UP

im in class , but i keep leaving out 2 get tissue due 2 my stuffy nose ! ugh !

why me!

_come.2.ME,love

ugh,

Come 2 ME, love

 love why dnt u show u love me?

 why cant i get thru 2 u, love?

 did i do sumthn 2 u, love?

 if i had 2 choose i'd choose u.

 so yu shud feel tha same & choose me 2 !

without u, love, ppl wudnt "LIVE"

they wont be dead but life wudnt having a meaning

love, u run tha world

u can destroy tha world

if u ran away, every heart wud but cold

love, come back

i think i see you but im not sure

just come 2 ME

reach out 4 ME

& i will come 2 u

but love, i only want YOU

so u should want me TOO

-Chelsea Campbell

_we ARE the world !

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_MardiGRAS

Today is Mardi Gras, which is French for Fat Tuesday !

_nike dunks

ayyye, these kinda dope...
http://hypebeast.com/2010/02/nike-sb-2010-spring-dunk-premium/

_The Fast Times of Lance

go visit his blog fasttimesoflance.blogspot.com !

p.s. even tho he tryna be like me !

_punkrose

i really want thesee !!!!!

_iN My Zone !

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_New Moon

okay , so it starts off as Bella bday which she doesnt want 2 celebrate but Edward & his family insists...so she goes 2 their house & things get outta control when she gets a paper cut & Jasper (Edwards brother) tries 2 ATTACK her edward thn protects her AGAIN ! he start acting distant frum bella & eventually tells her tht his family is leaving & tht she wud be better off w/o him...she wanders tha forest 4 him & gets discovered her dad suggests she move w/ her mother & she refuses...months go by & she's not tha same...she bcomes "reckless" & starts hanging out w/ her old friend Jacob (who is so cute) she uses him at 1st 2 fix some motorcycles...they hang out almost everyday & bcome BFF's..whenever she does sumthn "reckless' she get hallucinations frm Edward so she tries 2 keep his voice in her head by doin these reckless things...Jacob gets "sick" & avoids Bella, she's super hurt, but he cant say whts goin on..he's a werewolve ! so is almost killed by Laurent (1 of James friends) but the "wolves" protect her...eventually she finds out tht Jacob was 1 of thm,..she hangs out w/ his friends 4 a while thn gets bored & decides 2 go "cliff-diving" 2 hear Edward ! she jumps...& starts 2 drown...jacob saves her...so Alice comes back 2 visit bella & she chooses her over JAcob...Alice thn "sees" somethng is wrng & they go 2 save edwrad in Volterra & almost dies ! they return 2 Forks & Edward tells her how he never meant 4 her 2 b in so much danger...etc

In New Moon i instantly fell 4 Jacob but in Twilight i was in love w/ Edward ! This Saga leaves u goin frm 1 person 2 tha next !

_Twilight

&& so it beginsss. . .it starts off with a girl, Bella, she's moving 2 live w/ her dad cuz her mom is married 2 this pro-athlete...bella doesnt really like Forks so she is always down. When she goes 2 school everyone shows her attention bcuz she's new. she notices this group of ppl (the Cullens) who satnd OUT & she wonders abt them she then realize how edgy Edward is w/ her...they go on this love/hate rollercoaster but he thn chooses he cant stay away frm her..she find out his family's secret which is, they're vampires but she DOESNT care ! he stays at her house while she's sleeping (which is so sweet) & stuff like tht...so the climax comes into play when they go ply baseball & this other group of vampires finds them...one of thm (james) realizes tht Bella is human & Edward immeadiately protect her...edward's sister & brother take bella 2 phoenix but James end up tracking her & tricks her into meeting him & tries 2 kill her but Edward comes & saves her ! This book is wayyyy better than tha movie ; i suggest every1 read it. it's kinda sappy but overall its a great romantic adventure !

_twilightSAGA

omgeeee these books are great (even tho havent gotten 2 breaking dawn yet) ! i never felt so in-tune with a book or its characters. i think ima go into a synopsis of each book !

_alone

. . .soooo it's lunch time && it'z freezinnnn ! OMG im sitting in tha library , bored & lonelyyy !



these are the coldest , lonelinest days of my life. . .

the memory of a SONG

_sometimes i find that songz are connected to a person...like i think for every person that i KNOW, there's a song(s) that reminds me of them. and it often bring up memories that you no longer wish to have...it also bring up good times but...not all tha time..Lets say you and your ex have a special song or whatnot..then when u r with ur current bf/gf you hear tht song..it will cause you to think about tht person & not the person you're with, which is not good! Songz can be beneficial or hinderous once i think about it! but its something that I can't live w/o...

_dreamsDOcomeTRUE

OMGEEEE! I have been accepted into Louisiana State University!!!!!! Im so excited! Dreams do come true...now i have to get on my ish...i need 2 find scholarships & apply 4 housing etc. but im READY!!! :) I still cant believe it...

but its true & im goin 2 do my best 2 make it real official by getting all my things in order...Im not gone let HATERS bring me down either or ppl (fam) try 2 persuade me 2 go somewhere else or do what THEY want ME 2 do! The Choice is MINE!!!! its MYlifeee!

Well back to happiness...I can't wait 4 college now!! But im not gone rush it... =)

Quote of The Day:

"First Impressions are ever-lasting ; so it should be an ever-lasting essential."

-chelsea campbell

LANCE!

so there's this guy. . .

BLACK_roses

The song "Black Roses" by Trey Songz is THEE BEST !! I mean like have you actually listened to the lyrics ? Do you get the message? Do you reallyyyyyy get the metaphor he is speaking of?

"Black roses for this dyin' love; now we're breakin' up; since we're giving up; black roses and early valentine; special delivery just for you and I..." whaaaaat !! you can't tell me that, that isnt the BEST! Maybe it's because I've been through that situation or the song ROCKZ!!!! (yuuup)

myFUTUREschool

I'm really considering LSU ! I hope i get accepted. I want to go there for many different reasons. . .even though it's still in Baton Rouge i feel as if it's going to be different because i wont be at home & i'll be in COLLEGE! Totally different side of town & atmosphere ! I'm really looking forward to being a LSU tiger! Hopefully they don't let me down... *fingers cross*

spoiled ?

am i spoiled? i dont really think i am..well maybe a little but i mean oh well! i was told that i always have 2 have my way. well yeah i guess thats true..but ima ARIES thts one of my traits if yu cant accept tht then....idk wht 2 tell yu! i dnt think me wanting my way is the problem i think yu want YOUR way as well soooo u want things 2 go as yu say & so do I...so how can such a thing occur?? is it possible..? can we both want && get our way?? i think it COULD happen but idk if it will...cuz we both have 2 want it but its gonna take time...are yu willing...?

love lost. . .

i guess love doesnt exist in places where love isnt wanted. . .its a rollercoaster, but its broken..but atleast, we'll die on top!

so i ask what is love?

• 
  
  is it an illusion or is it real?


• 
  
  is it a snack or is it a meal?


• 
  
  does it even happen


• 
  
  or is it a fantasy ppl believe so much

that they have created an epidemic of

"finding love"...

hmmmm....

Blogging !

Okay. . .so this is my first blog ! Hopefully "The Life of Chelz" will be interesting but anyway...i'll really start blogging when i have something to say !!