_Lost of Understanding

Dedicated 2 My Father. . .

I'm shedding tears 2 clear the pain
the pain from my heart will always remain
the day i lost u, i lost understanding
i lost all sense of comfort
i lost understanding cuz u were the only one 2 understand me
now years later, no one still understands me
u supported my dreams, unlike THEM
cuz they will never understand me
u was there for me
you looked after me
sometimes i think God messed up & took half of me
he baffled me
Why me? why u?
who knows, surely wish i had a clue
i miss u dearly
talkn 2 God, asking if he hearing me
ur absense is killing me
the pain won't go away
I think abt u everyday
I shed tears in every way
mournful tears, silent cries
coming from my soul or my eyes
I'm still not understanding
but maybe cause when i lost you...
                      ...i lost understanding.

-Chelly Y