i wish . .

i wish i didn't love you so much . .
cuz it's like you hurt me but i still can't let go
u love me but its still not enough
u say u love me but i want it to show

my mind wants to leave
but my heart won't let me
i'm doing the best i can
but temptation surrounds me

TrueLove

Love is EVIL ! lol , nahh
but love is a destroyer & a peace-maker . .
Love can tear yu apart & put yu back together. .
Love can mae yu be like gtfomf or make yu say "come closer". .
Love is always pure tho . well true love tht is. .
Love can mae yu wanna scream or smile. .
Love can be difficult or easy. .
Love can be a cause or an effect. .
Love, oh love, why must yu be sooo complicated ?

Why cant we just get along , love ?
Why cant we disagree but move on ?
Why cant we choose who & how to love ?
Why cant we put aside differnces ?
WWhy cant we be patient & understanding ?
Well we shuld be able to if its TrueLove , right ?
WRONG !

Even truelove has there problems. .
Even truelove goes thru pain. .
Even truelove can go thru hell. .

But truelove also accepts the other for who they are..
Even if they arent close to perfect. .

TrueLove ? something thts confusing
& iwonder if i found my truelove. . . .

justThinking .

okayy soo i was just thinking , & when/if a relationship is mainly based on S E X , the relationship doesnt last very long . i mean everyone can have sex . Relationships should be exclusive, something two ppl share that would be hard to find in others . Sex ? u can find that in EVERYBODY, thts not original . if couples DO decide to have sex just remember its not a priority nor neccessity !

signing out . . .

-Chelly.Y

StrongWaves , DarkMornings

The waves washes things away
if you're lost, the sun leaves you to stray
the waves will mostly stay
but the sun always goes away

you have the perfect castle in the sand
you can try to save it far as long as you can
but waves are coming you cant withstand
they will wash away your castle in the sand

the sun comes up every morning
but it never stays; it gets all stormy
sometimes the night is filled with rain pouring
& then it's mostly a dark morning. . .

-Chelly Y

*includes deep metaphors , soo dont think its literal*

A Life-Long Friendship

As I try to trace down our friendship journey
I find myself lost
I would pay to find the history
Whatever the cost
I’m thinking back on all the years
I search & search but never find
Time moves like the speed of light
I guess it flew past my mind
Well whenever it was
I’m happy to have you
I never would have predicted this
And now it’s a dream come true
You are always there no matter what
If I am happy or down
We could not be talking & if I need you
You always come around
That is why I love you
You never let your pride get in the way
I cant picture life w/o my BFF
That’s why BR is where you should stay
We are human
We will fight and fuss
But after a long day at school
I still look forward to the bus
Because you’re there
You take away all my pain
With your corny jokes & laughter
I hope for you, I do the same
I hope this is a life-time friendship
Because you will be in my heart, life-long
We can always count on each other
When life gets crazy & things go wrong

-Chelly Y
 
*dedicated to my bestfriend . ily . .
 
i look forward to adding on to this :)

From Me to You

I look for all the reasons
that may cause yuu to leave
Nothing has ever felt
This good or been this true
When yuu speak on how yuu feel. .
about me. . .
I don't believe it.
It feels too suureal
I can't imagine for you. .
to love ME , unconditionally.
Accept my FLAWS
soo instead , i try to find wrongs
Accussing you of all unfaithfulness
When deep down all i want to do
is trust & believe that. .
you wont cause any harm . . .to me
Being afraid of the predator ,
which is yuu
tryna protect my vunerability
scared that yuu may
slip up & make me your prey.
So i keep my guard UP
hoping tht yuu dont give up
& praying tht yuu are patient
slowly allowing ME
to trust & pull down my guard
for you to love ME . .
unconditionally . . .

::Chelly Chelz

RE:cap

Okayy , sooo i havent blogged since i graduated !
*--------------------------------------*
Graduation was May 17th & i dnt think i will ever forget tht day !
Well maybe once imm old & gray , lol
Buuut it was a surreal moment for meh like when i crossed the stage i wasnt just crossing a stage
I was crossing over into a new part of my life
A new part tht now allows ME to decide my path .
I wasnt just receiving a diploma
i also received courage & opportunities .
Opportunities to better myself so tht i can live a successful life.
It was a saddening moment but also a glorious one .
I know i will be fine at the end of the day .
I will reach my goals w/ God's help in evry whicha way !

::Chelly Chelz

"You become stressed when you worry about other's input, opinions, or lives. Just chill tf out forreal and do you."

. . . i <3 this . it's soo true. when u worry abt urself everything's cool , but worrying abt others, will constantly leave yu w/ headaches & stress ! just live YOUR life .

That is all . .

So-called Life.

Trapped inside
all alone with
deep cries
formed by a mother
that doesn't trust
a mother that
yells & fuss
a father that smokes & cuss
a family that drives me nuts
a lil brother who's suppose 2 be my friend
we were at one time
but how quickly things end.
Trapped in this cage
we call life
living each day
in utter strive.
Waiting on the day
when i can move out
& do things my way
Forced to obey their rules
forced to be treated so cruel
These four walls are all i have
& this so called life
is leading me 2 a dead end path
Having 2 get permission 2 sleep
treated like a criminal w/ shackles on my feet
but this so called life won't last long for me
here lies the door 2 success
& i hold the key
My dreams WILL be accomplished
even if it takes forever & eternity.

-Chelly Y

*This was written for someone special.*

random..

you go left,
i go right
but before
it was you go str8
& i on your side.
how quickly
things change
without it being
predicted.
listening to all the
rumors & critics
do they really knw?
no.
cause we barely knw
if we knew
there would be
a me & you.
but it's not a
we, us, or you & me
we're nothing
thought our bond
would last
for eternity.
guess thats not
what it used 2 be
cuz if tht was eternity
1 decade
is something
i dont wanna see.

-Chelly Y